How many times did I wake up at the middle of the night to cry my thoughts out and stay awake until morning having locked myself in a room🤔...Sitting on the bed and sometimes at the floor trying to figure out everything in the dark covered by the ceilings on top and the only thing I could hear was the dark cold night whispers,no chirping of the birds😥no light to cover the chills in the room😑scared of the person I was becoming😢scared of what I'd face the following day🥶I was getting cold,and if I had to cry out loudly only my pillows could feel the pressure of what my mouth was covering for no one to hear the strong one cry🤬not eating for days and in that cold night,no beem of sleep or light or hunger could strike for thoughts were roaming everywhere😪ssssshhhh🤫I could tell my mind whenever it could begin speaking loudly.
O boy🤭🥺what should you feel?that now nobody understands what you feel.I want to try this and then tomorrow,no its not working🥴Let me be with people,nooooo you are a loner right now nobody will get what youre trynna communicate😶then sit alone and do your own stuff,o yeaaaa but I'm going bananas slowly by slowly,I'm almost going mad you know😔my sanity where are you?where is my peace?o yes all this was in my mind the long nights I spend awake all alone😥😒I want to talk,but to whom should I pour all this to and they get what I'm feeling🥺😓
I am okay,no I'm not,I think I am,no I don't know😓I try everyday,I hide for nobody to notice that I'm not okay,but again I want them to understand what I am feeling😒the nights turned into days and the days turned into months.All Alone😑No nothing at all.
And then this night came,when I knew for sure,imma die any minute cause the thoughts,yes,thoughts not able to be explained kept on tormenting me until nothing seemed worthwhile,o yes nothing.I was nervous over nothing.Just felt as if everything is falling apart.And yes,the moments were hard,tough,rough,tormenting.
Ah,little did I know.........🤪to be continued.........🎩
#POWER GIRL🌹❤
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